I find myself filling the silence with it, with podcasts, and music, and phone calls.
With entertainment, or engagement.
I have carved out more time to purposefully sit in silence.
Whether writing, like now. Or just sitting. Or reading.
It takes a concerted effort to do so.
But I do find that my entire mind and body relax to a calm, yet limber state.
I know I should take up meditation as a regular practice.
What has stopped me?
Habits? Societal and close environmental conditioning to be productive, I’m sure.
As well as what seems to be an innate need to be useful.
But am I not more useful when I am in a calm and limber state?
I guess I just convinced myself.
Rather than critiquing others’ behavior or getting caught up in ideating different ways in which to solve things, I will make it a habit to actively answer the question.
To clarify, when I find a problem or something I’ve been putting off, I will ask myself, “how I could solve this right now?” And then take that action.